Wide Awake

im wide awake
yes, i was in the dark
im falling hard
with an open hard
im wide awake
how did i read the stars so wrong?
im wide awake
and now its clear to me
that evrything you see, aint always what it seems
im wide awake
yes, im dreaming for so long

i wish i knew then, what i know now
wouldnt dive in, wouldnt bow down
gravity hurt
you make it so sweet
'till i wake up on, on the concreate

falling from cloud nine
crashing from the high
im letting go tonight

im wide awake
not losing anysleep
i picked up evrypiece and landed on my feet
im wide awake
need nothing to complete my self
NO


im wide awake
yes, im born again
outta the lions den
i dont have to pretend
and its too late
the story is over now
the end

#kattyperry

i choose

dear my past and dream future..

i love you

but i love my present more
and today, i cant life without him
so
i will still live this life, fullest
loving my man as perfect as i could be

but you know,
i'll alwaysthinkingof you when the twightligt down
missing you fir the rest of my life

you choose to leave..
and i choose this

i made a lot of mistake
and i know
i'mm not deserve for us

s.o.r.r.y

Picture

I know we separated by all the reason you may say
distance, boundaries, status, life choice, even hate
but thats cant stop this feeling
i'm still go on
bcoz as long as we share the same sky and air
we can still see the same cressant moon
and i see you

i'm picturing us
someday
side by side
heading to the blue beach
driving in the middle soft wind
and warm sun

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Now I Know

Alhamdulillah...
Now I know,
you have let me go..
here,
i can't feel you around, anymore
this feel relief, and (hurt)
sometimes

i know you've been gone for a while
coz i can't feel you

but you know, here always been a little place in me
deep in me
yours

see you, when i see you
if we made for each other,
there's come a day that just u and me

m.i.s.s.u.s

the day 1

august,10th,2014

i've thingking of you all day.
.... and me happy, we finally met.
so happy, honestly.
like child get new toys.
alhamdulillah.... Alloh, allow me. to see you. one more time. 

confesstion[s]

ternyata... aku yang blm move on,

congratulations,, you win, i lost 

you happy, i misreable 

you move, im stuck

here, want you to lookback, and bring me home

to you, to ours

lucky me, still hear you once in a while

sometimes i cant take it

knowing your happy live,

but know, my love for you has grow, to the different kinda love

decision

of course i love you
as long as i can remember, you never hurt me.
me, hurt you. always.
this is the best love i can give to you
this is the closest place, i can get.
to be as near as possible.

of course i jelouse
but i can not hate your woman or your baby
bcoz it will hurt you.
so, i love your woman and your baby too. like you do.

this is a different kinda love, the wide one.

the decisions has made.
you will always be in my heart
forever
as long as i can breath.

if you ask why?
the aswer is : because, now, i grow up.