the day 1

august,10th,2014

i've thingking of you all day.
.... and me happy, we finally met.
so happy, honestly.
like child get new toys.
alhamdulillah.... Alloh, allow me. to see you. one more time. 

confesstion[s]

ternyata... aku yang blm move on,

congratulations,, you win, i lost 

you happy, i misreable 

you move, im stuck

here, want you to lookback, and bring me home

to you, to ours

lucky me, still hear you once in a while

sometimes i cant take it

knowing your happy live,

but know, my love for you has grow, to the different kinda love

decision

of course i love you
as long as i can remember, you never hurt me.
me, hurt you. always.
this is the best love i can give to you
this is the closest place, i can get.
to be as near as possible.

of course i jelouse
but i can not hate your woman or your baby
bcoz it will hurt you.
so, i love your woman and your baby too. like you do.

this is a different kinda love, the wide one.

the decisions has made.
you will always be in my heart
forever
as long as i can breath.

if you ask why?
the aswer is : because, now, i grow up.

Questions...Questions...

my head..my head... full of questions..
i cant ask.. i want ask.. but it just cant

do i still love you,, ??
do i still want us??
do you??
do you still want me? love me? want us together?

when??
when you give up on me?? when??
you ever told me, that you will never leave...

do you miss us???
coz i still fell you,
 and yes.. i m i s s y o u

Hi,

i dedicate this blog, to you, my self, and us...
more to my self, i think.
bcoz im in hopeless level, for you, to find this "letter"
let me present... all thing... i cant said out loud
fpr me for you for us
unsaysable-unsayable-unspeakable-unwordsable-unnameable
but thruth....
i do... FEEL this.............................................